Autognosis

“Who am I?” This is the question I’ve been asking myself for my entire life.  And this blog is one of those many experiments to find an answer to it.

I’m an Indian by birth and breath, hailing from its southern most state, The God’s Own Country Kerala, born in to an archetypal Malabari Muslim joint family of Calicut. Residing in a village not far from the city, I’ve spent my childhood playing in muddy fields as well as in front of PC games.  I’ve played all those ‘Hide-n-Seek’, ‘Ice-n-Water’, ‘Fairy-n-Prisoners’ to ‘Super Mario’, ‘Prince’, ‘Dev’, GTA, etc. I’m a big foodie like any other typical kozhikoden, but a disaster when it comes to cooking.

Literally a bookworm, who’d sit in a corner and dive into own world even in the middle of a chaos. Having been to state syllabus Malayalam medium schools except for kindergarten, my English wasn’t really good. At first, I used to read only Malayalam short stories, novels and some translated non-Malayalam novels. I so much wanted to read English novels because the translations I’d read always seemed kind of incomplete. In High School, I started reading English, small and simple books like Oliver Twist, Harry Potter, etc at first, and moving on to bigger books like Love in the Times of Cholera. My parents and siblings were also very passionate readers, hence a big chunk of my dad’s earnings were spent at book-fairs.

Even then, we weren’t the complete-indoor-type. The elders never let us to be so. Being a joint family we had enough ‘partners in crime’ as cousins. We had unlimited freedom to try anything. Like exploring places on our bicycle, climbing trees, playing in the muddy water during heavy raining monsoon, swimming, etc… My childhood was very much enjoyed.

I spend a lot of time fangirling over the characters from the books I read, a diehard potterhead with a sherlocked soul, still hope some wardrobe will lead me to Narnia.

I pretty much botched up my college life, but I still don’t regret it because of some priceless friends I got, and some life lessons I learnt.

Now, sitting in front of my laptop thinking about the good old times, I regret growing up. Everything was so easy back then. Nothing to worry about. Now the time has come to do something different. Creative. Interesting… I’m in search for that something that would give me back the joy of living. Sitting at home, graduated, apparently unemployed and ‘single’, I’m on my new experiment of finding myself. Here, I scribble down what I see through my glasses. That is,

Scribbled. Through my Lorgnette…

 

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21 Comments Add yours

  1. Hello Aisha,

    So nice to find you here and I really enjoyed reading your ‘Autognosis’ 🙂

    So nice to hear ‘Super Mario’, ‘Prince’ and ‘Dev’ after a long time and they reminds me of my school and college days 🙂

    Thank you so much for your visit to my blog and I really appreciate your follow.

    Hope you get to choose your direction at this crossroads, at the earliest, which brings happiness and some make your life meaningful 🙂

    Have a great time 🙂

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    1. aishahnaaz says:

      Thank you so much for your kind words. I loved your blog and I went all “woww” on your each and every picture. You’re such a gifted photographer!! 🙂

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      1. Thank you so much for your kind words, Aisha 🙂

        Have a beautiful day ahead 🙂

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      2. aishahnaaz says:

        Thank you, and same to you! 🙂

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  2. IshmaImroz says:

    Wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww………………. Awesome!!! brilliant… amazing and thrilled To have a found a Malayali Muslimah co blogger… But when I read CALICUT I cant stop but jump around!!!!!! Yippieeeeeeeeeee!!! Ayshaaa.. Am so glad to meeet the beautiful writer and author! ❤ Wow you are a beautiful piece of gem!! Studying in Malayalm medium schooll and having such great vocabulary!!!! Hats off habeebthi! :* Loads of love… Assalamu Alaikkum wr wb! 😉

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    1. aishahnaaz says:

      Whoa!!!! You’re also from koykod??!!!! Em sooo happy to meet you too!!!!!!(virtually 😉 ) 😀 😀 😀 thank you soo very much for your compliments!! And you’re such a fab poet!! I loved your blog!! How come I din notice that before!!! On a wild guess, are you residing at any Arab country ?? 😛 😛 cuz y’know, koykod and middle East have this strong connection even before Vasco da Gama set his foot at kappad ! 😉

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      1. IshmaImroz says:

        ahahahha yes yes!!! koykod … namma swantham koykod! 😉 west hill.. what abt u? 😀 Awww that’s sooo sweeeet!! ❤ You are an amazing blogger yourself! 😉 hats off lady! :* hahah yes Qatari if u wanna call me! 😛 hahahahah!! yes yes… athanne! 😛

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      2. aishahnaaz says:

        Tanku tanku :* I’m near to vengeri. Puthya bypass nte adthayt varum. 🙂

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      3. IshmaImroz says:

        oooooooooh!!! a lil far from me.. but atleast!! we are kozhikodians! 😛

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      4. aishahnaaz says:

        Yah!! The koykodenz.. 😉

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      5. IshmaImroz says:

        hahahha!! amazing name! 😛

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  3. MuseWriter says:

    Hi Aisha 🙂 Love what I’ve read so far, you must have a lot of stories to share! Looking forward to perusing your works. ❤ Muse

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    1. aishahnaaz says:

      Thank you so much for stopping by. 🙂 I hope your stay 🙂

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  4. Hi. I wrote something about trains in a couple of blogs okay. When I went through The ‘Train’ of Memories, I was surprised.Great work , all the posts.

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    1. aishahnaaz says:

      Oh! Thank you very much!! 🙂 I’d love to read yours too! Can you share the link?

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      1. It’s one in my blog. Safar khoobsoorat he manzil SE bhi

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      2. And we took the photos using the same phone too.. Lol

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      3. aishahnaaz says:

        Haha!! Hail Moto!

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  5. franklparker says:

    Hi Aishahnaaz.When I saw your comment on one of Sha’Tara’s recent posts and that you are from Kerala I thought you might like to know that I recently had the pleasure of meeting T D Ramakrishnan. He had been invited to Ireland by some people resident here who are from Kerala and missed having writing in Malayalam available.
    Apparently there are a significant number of people from your province working in the Irish health system.
    I admire how you are mastering English in your own writing.

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    1. aishahnaaz says:

      Wow. He is a very talented writer. I have read his most famous book ‘Francis itty corra’.
      Thank you very much for stopping by. 🙂 It really means a lot!
      Malayalees are said to be working or living on every nook and corner of the universe. 😅 There’s a saying around here in Kerala, when Neil Armstrong and Edwin Aldrin first stepped out on the moon, they had tea and snacks from Chandrettan’s thattukada.
      Chandrettan – Brother Chandran(Name)
      Thattukada – tea stall
      😂

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